He jumped
The only thing he could think of to dull the pain
Of his heart newly broken and bleeding
He jumped
And threw away his future
Like it was hollow as an old soda can
We wonder
Why his feet didn’t stop him and scream NO!
Why his soul stopped fighting
We wonder
Who he would have been
What he could have become
We wonder
If we are as blind and deaf as we seem at this moment
If we were the reason
He jumped
And today his seat is empty
The pallid sky is shrouded in mourning
He jumped
And today every heart jumps with him
In shock and pain
We wonder
If we will ever look at life through the same eyes
If the world really should keep spinning
We wonder
What he felt that we couldn’t understand
What he knew and never said
We wonder
Why the unexplainable happens
Why the earth-shattering is so soon forgotten
Why the strong are so easily made weak
Why those who love the deepest fall the hardest
Why the tragedies we are sure will never happen
Suddenly do and challenge everything we know
Why those who have so much to offer the world
Feel so worthless that they buy costly tickets to leave it
He paid with his life for a one-way ticket out
Out of the raging storm in his mind and heart
Maybe he was weak and cowardly
But maybe, maybe he was just strong for too long
Maybe he hid a secret he was sure he couldn’t spill
And maybe we will never fully understand why
He jumped
We wonder, we will wonder,
We will never stop wondering
May this wonder make us look deeper, speak softer
Ask gentler, and listen harder
He jumped out into the unknown and
We wonder

There’s something in my loneliness
That makes me smile
Perhaps a memory, a moment of truth
That time has forgotten to erase
I dream when I’m lonely
Not because I loathe reality
Because my reality loathes me
The one thing I want more than anything
Is dangled in front of me
Until it is in a moment snatched away

Yet there’s something in my loneliness
That makes me long for some purer feeling
Worse than the fact that I have no one
Is the fact that no one has me
I cry when I’m lonely
Not because no one is near me
Because no one belongs to me
My existence relies on no other’s existence
My heart beats in my chest
With no strings to tie it to another’s

There’s something in my loneliness
That makes my mind wander from its path
Perhaps I should be considering the equation for velocity
Instead I consider how fast I can run back to you
I sing when I’m lonely
Not because I need the release
Because I need you to realize me
To recognize me as a chance at love
A love that happens once in a lifetime
That could be if we let our hearts run free

Lonely is the fuel to a fire I can’t quench with anything
The catalyst setting off reactions I can’t control
Because there’s something in my loneliness
Something I can’t live without no matter how hard I try

The smile, the dream, the dangling wish
The longing, the tears, the song that lulls me to sleep
The once-in-a-lifetime chance…maybe it’s

You

You are the something
That makes my loneliness seem more like love
The kind of love I never thought I’d feel
Impossible to deny or bottle up
With you beside me I could never feel lonely
I could face the world’s pain with a smile

You

You are the something
That turns a sleepless night to a blissful dream
The dream I wish would last forever
Smiling on me like the moonlight
Scattering the last remains of my loneliness
To the shore, swept away by whispering waves

Every moment I spend with you, I fall
Deeper and deeper into those waves of love
With every smile and every word
You tie my heartstrings to yours
Perhaps without even feeling the pull

Loneliness once gripped it tightly
But love is the great thief
Love stole my heart from loneliness
And I have not yet had the chance to thank him